tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42887869906681904062024-03-13T08:36:55.341-07:00Melt Away the PoundsMy journey to meJuleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.comBlogger240125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-864276130271111222011-08-10T21:39:00.002-07:002011-08-10T21:45:24.173-07:00uuggghhh...Right now I'm sick. It's taking everything I have to take care of my kids minute to minute.
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<br />The thing that I keep pondering as i TRY TRY TRY to convince myself to count calories and cook meals that are more in line with my healthiness journey and avoid gaining weight this week is this? (mind you I've yet to convince myself of either)
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<br /><strong><em>HOW IN THE HECK...
<br />do you handle being sick and being "healthy" (aka dieting) at the same time?</em></strong>
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<br />Let me just admit right now. I'm failing!!! I've got to turn it around, but right now I can't seem to get past the fact that I feel like the worlds biggest pile of cow dung.
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<br />So how do you handle being sick and living a healthy lifestyle. Please share!!!
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<br />Jules
<br />Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-52252704715428156462011-08-04T20:48:00.002-07:002011-08-04T21:16:30.785-07:00Checking inYep, I'm still around. I have not been out of touch due to falling off the wagon. I've been out of touch because:<br /><br />I'm trying to live my life more.<br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">(that's something I've realized I had quit doing due to my weight)</span></em><br /><br />I'm working hard to fit exercise into my life without excuses.<br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">(that's something I haven't done in almost 10 years)</span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br />I'm trying daily to keep my "diet" something reasonable and REAL. To make it a lifestyle not a "diet" that I'll stop doing shortly after starving myself.<br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">(Which lets face it. can SUCK! But I've learned to accept that pasta and cheese dishes can not be the norm.)</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em><br />Needless to say add a husband, 2 kids, a cat, trying to buy our first home hoopla, a part time job and life in general. Keeping those 3 things above in the forefront of my mind is a chore all in itself. BUT I'm trying every day.<br /><br />And so far so good. I'm down 10lbs since I started using myfitnesspal.com (early July was a little tougher than I realized, but the scale did realize it and showed it). I'm pretty consistent on exercise. I'm fitting it in 4-6 days a week. The whole family heads to the park and I go walking while the oldest rides her bike and the littlest one hangs out screaming doggie in the stroller. It's adorable, take my word for it. :)<br /><br />I think the biggest change since I last checked in is the hubster. He seems more on board with what I need from him as the hubby of an overweight food addict. He's starting to listen to me!! <span style="font-size:130%;">WHAT!! step back... how'd that happen. hehehee!!</span> Sorry no magical pills being slipped to him. I think he's just finally really listening when we talk about things. Like how carb related sweets are my form of crack. Can't have it in the house without an addict using. He's finally getting it. Taken him long enough. :) lol I think it's also helping that he's trying to train for a job that he really wants to get. He's going to be expected to run 1.5mi in 16min. No biggie... but he hasn't ran since HS. Lets not even admit how long ago THAT was. :) lol So while I walk, he runs. It's working so far. I can't wait for it to be cooler out there. over 100 @ 7pm is starting to get to us all.<br /><br />I just realized that isn't the biggest change since my last post. I'm working hard on changing my own personal view on ME! You know that negative little nelly in your head that looks at someone else who's obviously bigger than you, but tells you that your as big as them or even bigger. Or that negative nelly who tells you you can't do this losing weight thing; that you'll fail. Well, she's turning into a positive patty. I'm starting to be real about me! Telling myself that yes, I'm fat... get over it already! that it's NOT going to stay that way. And many more things I remind myself. But you get my drift.<br /><br />I'd say that HAS to be the biggest change. And that has GOT to be the biggest thing that is making this work this time around too.<br /><br />Anyhow... It's bed time for me. i just wanted to touch base with you all! No matter what! Keep up the hard work! If I can do this... believe me, YOU can do this also! Keep your head up and strive to move forward!<br /><br />Always,<br />Jules<br /><br />PS. If you are using myfitnesspal feel free to friend me. jules77azJuleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-55475893291347063122011-06-17T21:53:00.002-07:002011-06-17T22:09:28.283-07:008lbs never to be seen againIt's the same ol' story as always.<br /><br />Time...<br /><br />Time...<br /><br />Time...<br /><br />there's just so little of it. And blogging just has not been a priority. I truly wish it could be. I miss it. I don't know how some moms do it.<br /><br />But I did want to share with you that I haven't been "MIA" because I again fell off the healthiness wagon.<br /><br />Since joining myfitnesspal.com I've lost 8lbs. YEAH!!!<br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><em>(if your on there, look for me: jules77az)</em></span><br /><br />I've had some slip ups and some bad eating days. Exercise is SOOO not consistent and some times few and far between. But I did bite the bullet and dropped my calories to the sites recommendation and although some days I feel like I'm starving and other days I'm SO tired of eating the same thing over and over again. I've been sticking to the plan I've set for myself eating wise. I'm eating as healthy as my families budget can afford and I'm not starving myself (ok some days I feel like I am, but i know it's all mental). On the hard days I try not to give in and other days (ie eating the last of the ice cream for lunch right out of the carton) I'm learning not to beat myself up over it. I'm learning not to "make up" for yesterday. I'm learning I'm human and days will be days. I'm learning. I feel like I'm getting the hang of it and I'm even feeling ready to venture out of the comfort zone I've established food selection wise (I've been eating mostly all the same things every breakfast and lunch). Baby steps right?<br /><br />I know I need to fit in exercise more. And I'm trying. I just hate it so much!!! I know it's a necessary evil but damn it!! I'm just too tired when the kids aren't around and busy when they are. I'll get there I know I will. But I'll get more comfy eating wise and keep doing what I'm trying to do. And in a few weeks... I'll have to set up a routine and do just what I've done eating wise... stick to it.<br /><br />For now, I just wanted to say.<br /><br />No matter where you are in your journey.<br /><br />DON'T GIVE UP!!<br /><br />Keep plugging away and keep fighting for yourself. Sooner or later you will find what works for you. Getting healthy and how to get there is not a cookie cutter recipe. It's a different map for everyone and different things work for everyone.<br /><br />I for one am not giving up.<br /><br />And the 8lbs I've lost... I vow to never see again. And for once, I believe myself. :)<br /><br />JulesJuleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-66594565869520875752011-05-07T07:18:00.002-07:002011-05-07T07:24:03.518-07:00ugly ugly day.Yesterday was an ugly ugly day for me. I just couldn't find motivation for ANYTHING!! On a day like yesterday, making mac and cheese for my oldest was a BAD BAD idea.<br /><br />Breakfast I was good and dinner I was good. lunch and snacks... bad bad bad. Although. I must say 1 thing I'm proud of. It wasn't as bad as it used to be. My calories are suppose to be 1410/day and I ended yesterday at 1649. Before I would have ended at 2400 calories. So that was a victory all in its own. Finding 1 good thing out a bad day is a good thing. Shows I'm learning!! :)<br /><br />Exercise was non existent yesterday so I'm counting yesterday as 1 of my days off. And that's ok too.<br /><br />Today I am going to rock it and achieve all my goals. I just know it!!!<br /><br />Have a wonderful day today!Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-55552434919616917472011-05-06T09:27:00.003-07:002011-05-06T09:41:22.860-07:00A leap of faith in me.Yesterday was a GREAT day. Until the evening hit. :) lets start from the beginning of the day though. :)<br /><br />I woke up feeling sore from my workout the day before. YEAH!!<br /><br />I ate great all day! So well that by dinner I WAY more than enough calories to eat dinner and a snack. :) Gotta love that! We were having BLT's and for the first time EVER. I chose NOT to eat bread. OMG! Who am I? I made a BLT salad instead. I even made a dressing out of lite Mayo (what's a BLT without mayo) and a little bit of lemon juice. Wasn't too bad and I filled up REALLY quick with under 400 calories for a meal. YEAH!! But I admit I missed that yummy BLT sandwich taste. but I made a healthier choice and that's what's important. :)<br /><br />As for exercise yesterday I hit my goal by the 2nd mini workout I did. Which turned out to be REALLY good because my evening workout got nixed by life. I ended up spending the evening at the ER with my son. Life happens, what can you do. I ended up hungry while waiting (we were there until midnight) to finish his visit, but did not cave to vending machine munchies. I knew that anything I chose would leave me feeling more hungry. So i ended up WAY under my calorie goal for the day. But what do you do right? at least I made good choices. And since I decided to push my 2nd mini workout to 20 minutes instead of 10. I did hit my 30 minutes/day goal. So I don't feel bad about not having gotten to work out.<br /><br />I must admit though... having less than 6 hours of sleep today leaves me less than motivated to workout today. I just need to find the umph to push through.<br /><br /><br />Thank you for the suggestions yesterday about calorie counting. I ended up signing up for myfitnesspal.com. My username is jules77az feel free to look me up. I've decided to take the leap and do whatever myfitnesspal suggests calorie wise and exercise wise. I'll just HAVE to take a chance in me. I know I can do it. I just have to stick with it.<br /><br />have a beautiful day today!Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-26264706026046475602011-05-05T09:57:00.002-07:002011-05-05T10:06:46.873-07:00Swimmingly proud.yesterday wrapped up to be a pretty good day. Full of victories, although the scale is hating me right now and I'm returning the feeling.<br /><br />I ate beautifully. Well under my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">current</span> goal and I even made a dinner much lower in calories than it was intended to be. Hubby still loved it. That was a victory all on it's own. Slowly lowering my calories is really working out so much better for me. I'm not feeling suddenly deprived and I'm proud of how well I'm taking control of my eating. I'm hungry but I'm satisfied with my progress and my determination. I feel hungrier less and less. YEAH!!<br /><br />yesterday's workout plan worked wonderfully! I got in more exercise than I am currently capable of doing. So splitting up my exercise goal is a wonderful idea. I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner. Last night I attempted a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">netflix</span> workout i usually pass over because I know I'm just not capable of doing it fully. And guess what... i got further in it then I ever expected. i pushed myself and modified where I needed to. As a matter of fact I'm still sore today. YEAH!!<br /><br />So today <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> going to work on figuring out just WHERE my calorie goal should be. I feel daunted. i don't want some unrealistic goal that will lead me to failure.... I don't want to be unhealthy either. i have a 4yr old who watches me like a hawk so i have to be smart.<br /><br /><span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">How'd</span> you decide what your calorie intake should be? Any suggestions?<br /><br />May you all have a beautifully happy day today. :)Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-78719776849924501072011-05-04T10:07:00.002-07:002011-05-04T10:14:54.481-07:00Just keep swimming.Sorry I've not blogged the last few days. Just nothing much to say. Keeping my calories in check and doing what i can to exercise. I admit... yesterday was a feeling like a failure day. But I did exercise and I tried. it's all I ask of myself. :) Monday was a crammed full busy exhausting day so i didn't get much in. But I did do what i could calorie wise for the 2 meals we ate out for. :)<br /><br />Sunday night I mopped the house for exercise. How you ask? I danced while mopping. hehehee!! I'm so glad my husband and kids didn't come home while I was in the middle of it because I was bopping and movin' around like a crazy lady. Even I was laughing at myself. BUT the house needed mopping (we have all tile but the bedrooms) and I needed to work out. Since I know mopping for 1.5-2hrs would leave me too tired to workout. I decided to combine the 2. :) I woke up Monday and wasn't in "pain" but I could tell I had worked my muscles. :)<br /><br />Today I'm going to work on doing 2 10 minute workouts while my son naps and then my usual workout in the evening. Just so that i can squeeze in more minutes without trying to kill myself into doing a longer workout when the kids go to bed. My stamina will build I'll fight for it to build. :)<br /><br />Since I'm rambling... I'll let ya all go for now. :)Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-50632650534500316122011-04-29T20:46:00.002-07:002011-04-29T21:01:34.026-07:00WHOHOO!!!I love it when I prove things to myself. :) Today I was not a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">munchey</span> queen. I kept to my schedule and planned out every meal time (not the actual meal though). I was hungry but today was day 2 of keeping myself from munching and snacking. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">WHOHOO</span>!!<br /><br />The BEST part of today!!<br /><br />I kept my calories to just under 1600!!<br /><br />YEP! I did it!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">WHOHOO</span>!! I kept my calories UNDER my goal today!! <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">WHOHOO</span>!!<br /><br />You see, I finally realized something this week. It may sound <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">counter intuitive</span>, but i really need to ease myself into eating less calories because I end up starving or feeling like I'm depriving myself and then... i binge, I fail and then well I feel HORRIBLE about myself and I fall off the wagon.<br /><br />So... to help ease myself down to a more "lose weight" respectable calorie count I've decided this week and next week I'll be shooting for 2000 calories. Why 2000? Because I happen to know without doing any counting that I've GOT to be eating WAY more than 2000cal every day. I just feel it and in my heart I know it. my 3rd week I'll shoot for 1600-1800. I still am not sure WHAT the right # is for me for a final calorie count. I admit I'm not good at math. I must find a good website for helping me figure out a REALISTIC calorie count for me. Sounds like something to add to my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">Todo</span> list. :)<br /><br />Yesterday I <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">squeaked</span> under @ 1978cal.<br /><br />Today was a whopping 1600cal. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-error">WHOHOO</span>!!! Right now I don't feel hungry. And it's really nice to know that for once if I absolutely MUST have a snack I can. Not that i think I will. But still you know what I mean. :)<br /><br />Today will also be day 2 of working out. I haven't done it yet, but I'm about to. So i better go.Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-90225999624414355602011-04-29T10:02:00.002-07:002011-04-29T10:03:13.854-07:00trying...Trying to convince yourself you're not hungry. SUCKS!! Can't wait for snack time. Just an hour to go!<br /><br />I just wanted to share. hahahaha!!Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-58824986685585683252011-04-28T21:26:00.002-07:002011-04-28T21:42:30.632-07:00Putting me first.I haven't done that in a long time. We've been so busy around here that I've had little time for me. And I have to admit when i do have time that I take for me... I've not chosen to exercise, sleep yes... reading yes. Exercise No. My eating has been out of control. My weight this week hit 202 this week! WTH!! I have yet to be over 200 without being preggers. 5 lbs in 1 week!! Something's not working. Luckily I lost 3lbs by today... gotta just love water weight and I'm working hard to get those other 2lbs that I know are water weight gone by the end of the week.<br /><br />So why am I telling you all this. Because it has given me the kick in the ass that I've needed this last month. I have to put myself first. I feel like I'm a broken record, I know I am. So instead of telling you JUST how I've fallen off the wagon I'll tell you what I've been trying to do this week. I've been trying to get my eating under control. Counting calories, getting the munchies OUT of my daily routine. I failed miserably on Wed... and then today i just timed myself out. after breakfast figured out when lunch would be and wrote down what time I MUST eat a snack so that i wouldn't forget. And then when I started wandering the kitchen looking for something... anything. I stopped and saw that it wasn't time for a snack and went back to what I was doing. WHOHOOOO!!! I did that after lunch too. WHOHOOO!!!<br /><br />I know that is 1 of my biggest obstacles right now. Hunger. feeling hungry all the time. And I do mean hungry. Which has led to more portion distortion. But I also know if I work really hard in about 2 weeks... I can have it all back under control. So tomorrow will be a repeat of today. :) it HAS to be.<br /><br />My other issue has been exhaustion. So I'm working on battling that too. I'm only on here and not in bed yet because well... I really need to get my heart rate lowered before I can crawl into bed. yep, I worked out tonight. Not as long as I would have liked, but holy crap Carb Burn by Crunch just kicked my butt!! So I'm happy with what I did do. I haven't worked out that hard since I tried P90x. Anyhow... Same thing with the eating, I know if I move every day... no matter how long. The exhaustion will get better.<br /><br />So... there you have it. Me in a nutshell. Sons first BD went off beautifully, house hunting has been interesting and life is well... busy. But it's time for me. I'll try to be back tomorrow. :)Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-61121410722366673192011-03-04T09:16:00.002-07:002011-03-04T09:25:53.120-07:00Life is good and busy.I've been really busy in my life these days. Between planning a 1st <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">bd</span> party, house hunting, paring down our monthly finances, work, eating better/more <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">consciously</span> and growing up the kids , PLUS <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">life's</span> daily excursions... I feel like there's little time for exercise when the kids aren't constantly attacking me for something. And of course when they aren't I'm <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">exhausted</span>.<br /><br />This has been a great week food wise, but a poor week exercise/moving wise. But for the first time in a long time... I don't feel like I'm beating myself up for failing. I don't feel like a failure. WOW! that just hit me. I know I need to exercise and all. But not feeling like I'm failing myself is a good thing. I feel like I'm in a good place mentally and I'm getting there, 1 step at a time. I know I need to work harder towards exercise and I know that I really do. And I'm not letting myself off the hook, that's not what I'm saying. I'm just saying I'm feeling good about myself right now <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">despite</span> the lack of exercise. And that hasn't been the case in a LONG time.<br /><br />Anyhow, it's amazing the things that hit you when you just sit down and share. :) I better go eat breakfast before I start to feel over hungry.Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-44591719692745358912011-03-02T09:21:00.002-07:002011-03-02T09:29:53.953-07:00try try and try again.Every day I have to keep reminding myself it's all about my choices. Everything is my choice, including being overweight, even if I didn't mean to get where I am... i still chose the choices that got me here. Anyhow, it's been hard to keep that in the foreground of my mind instead of the background.<br /><br />That being said, I did work out 5 days in a row last week and the last few days, I have not. BBOOO!! But I'm ok. I don't feel like I'm beating myself up about it either which is new for me. The truth is, when the hubster is off, it's really hard to get anything done the way I wish for it. But we enjoyed his 4 days off and we did do things that involved moving, so we spent quality time together with no stress. i gained a few pounds, but thankfully by today they have disappeared. Gotta love water weight. :)<br /><br />Yesterday i had a lot to get done and I did not put exercise first. On the other hand, I DID put my counting calories first and I'm proud to say i stayed under 1300 calories yesterday. That is a HUGE feat for me. I've been in the 1900 range for the last few weeks floundering with my choices. I felt sated and happy all day; except for waiting too long to eat lunch which led to a healthy snack of popcorn. :) but I'm proud of myself for reminding myself that I CAN make good choices. :)<br /><br />So today I'm making my day about making good choices, doing my stepper while catching up on my shows, taking care of work that I'm way behind on and making good food choices for the day. :)<br /><br />What are you doing to make good choices today?Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-5379839463161261422011-02-23T10:19:00.002-07:002011-02-23T10:30:47.469-07:00Turning a corner in the right directionI'm proud of myself. Although lunch and breakfast could have been better choices I stayed satisfied and only had dinner and 1 snack. YEAH ME!! No binging. And even though I finished my snack and still wanted to eat, I stopped myself by asking myself if I was still hungry or just wanting to stuff something in my mouth. I'm very proud of myself, i feel good.<br /><br />Also, yesterday i moved for 3x longer than i have all week. And I'm proud to say I've moved for 3 days in a row. YEAH!!! Feels good ya know. I know I'm no where near where I wish i was, but I'm past the starting line and that is what matters.<br /><br />Anyhow, I've been eating fish all week for dinner. My experience with cooking fish is limited. I'm avoiding frying and other high calorie preps and sadly all my recipes call high calorie options. So far I've steamed with some seasoning and lemon juice, I used orange juice and ginger to pan sear and broiled with basil and lemon. But I'm out of ideas for tonight and instead of hitting the internet for recipe ideas (because I just don't feel like it today) I thought I'd check the best place for tried and true tasty but low cal recipes... you all!<br /><br />So, do you have any great recipes (low cal) for fish? I'd love to hear them. :)<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><em><strong>Jules</strong></em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-49333828670675961092011-02-22T10:06:00.002-07:002011-02-22T10:19:45.001-07:00bad bad daySo yesterday was a weird day. I was exhausted from having woke up 3 hours earlier than usual and only got 5hours of sleep. We all know how wonderful that is, but I managed to tackle some big todo list things despite it. YEAH!!<br /><br />I had a good day eating wise until dinner time and it all seemed to go down hill. By the time the kids were in bed I'd realized I'd binged between deciding it was time to cook and finishing dinner. I think this may be the first time I've admitted to binging in writing in front of other people. Though i will not go back to check to see if I already have admitted it or not. But the point is... it was bad enough my stomach pushed some of it back outa me. I know... EEEWWW!!!!! I thank goodness it did though because I was feeling pretty gross and it wasn't until after i puked that i realized I'd binged (i actually tried to tell myself maybe I cooked dinner wrong and it was bad food). I was having such a good day too eating wise, journaling wise, the whole works. I wasn't "depriving" myself or anything.<br /><br />Sigh.<br /><br />I did go back through and write down everything i could remember that I'd eaten. I have yet to tally the days totals... but I'm not sure I will. I mean really, do i need that # to let me know what happened. Nopers i don't.<br /><br />I did stay up late again last night though just to get in some kind of exercise. i was so exhausted though that it wasn't even as long as the night before. but at least I moved... that matters more than anything right now. I just gotta move, I've decided to quit telling myself a time limit. Just MOVE!!! Move until you can't anymore right? My capable time is short because of my lack of exercise for so long, but it'll get longer the more I MOVE.<br /><br />So there you go. Today will be better than yesterday. Somehow, some way, I'll choose for it to be better than yesterday.<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><em><strong>Jules</strong></em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-73960092847627713362011-02-21T08:21:00.003-07:002011-02-21T08:28:10.024-07:00Small victories that count the mostOk, I'm just so proud of myself that i just had to share with someone and you guys will get it more than anyone. :)<br /><br />This morning I made oatmeal for breakfast and normally I make it with: a fruit like banana, canned pumpkin or dried fruit, flax seed or bran, butter, milk and of course sugar. I can't stand bland food and fruit alone is never enough to jazz up my oatmeal for me. BUT today... when i gathered everything to add to my cup I left the milk, butter, and sugar in their respective storage spots. WHOHOO!! You got that right I chose to do something different.<br /><br />I'm kinda tired of banging my head against the wall and asking why why why. So 1 bite at a time, 1 meal at a time, 1 minute at a time. :) I just need to keep reminding myself of that again. :)<br /><br />What has been your latest SMALL VICTORY?<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><em><strong>Jules</strong></em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-41588489133800127502011-02-21T04:50:00.002-07:002011-02-21T05:00:19.952-07:00Weekend RecapThis weekend was much better than I anticipated. I worked out 1x more than usual. hahahahaa!! did you catch that, that means I worked out 1 day out of 2. hahahahaa!! It wasn't for long, but i went as long as I could on my Wii stepper: which means until my legs were rubbery. Kinda sad that it took less than 15minutes of stepping to get that way, but so glad I did it. :) YEAH!! it's the small things right? :) I did spend my whole weekend cleaning and tackling my Todo list. Gotta love getting things done. :)<br /><br />Food wise I did well and yesterday I started counting calories. I didn't end the day as badly as I would have thought, but it wasn't great. But it's a start, gotta begin some where and I'd rather get into a habit before I start trying to get all gung ho about calorie crunching. Does that make any sense? I'm just tired of starting something and going ALL the way just to stop doing it. So how do i make it a habit if I bite off more than I can chew? I figure starting slow, just like I would if I was trying to run a mile for the 1st time. I'll build momentum, I know I will.<br /><br />So, I'm on my way to making healthier habits and I did CHOOSE to be healthier than my past this weekend so I call that a win any day.<br /><br />I hope everyone has a wonderful monday. :)<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><strong><em>Jules</em></strong></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-6713725026797677582011-02-19T09:30:00.004-07:002011-02-19T09:45:51.162-07:001 foot off the wagon and 1 foot onIt's been a rough week. I've been food <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">journaling</span> and weighing my food pretty well this whole week and trying to stay <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">conscious</span> of my eating habits. And of course it could be better, but improvement from the past is always a good thing right? :) But exercise has been well, non <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">existent</span>. I've got to admit this has been a rough week full of trying to stay on top of my job, kids and some major speed bumps in our life that i have to admit... I've had excuse after excuse and exhaustion. It doesn't help that I've been feeling like I'll never be able to do it again. Trying to get my brain on board is not helping me get there either. I need to figure out a routine for when the baby is sleeping to get everything done without staying up late.<br /><br />To top it off... I'm freaking out about my commitment to do the American cancer Society's Climb to Conquer Cancer that I signed up for next weekend. If 15minutes of <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">cardio</span> is too hard how will I even manage hiking? Which boils down to needing to get in at least 15minutes of exercise every day just to be sure my muscles aren't cramping 10 minutes into the hike. Feeling overwhelmed just SUCKS! But I know I can do it, I've done it before without being in any kind of shape, so I know I can do it again.<br /><br />1 good thing happened at the end of yesterday that has me really excited and will surely be taking a lot of my time the next few weeks perhaps months... we qualified to buy our first home. HOLY <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">MOLEY</span>!! I almost feel like I'm in a dream, so 1 more thing to juggle in my search for making time... but I'm so excited about that one it's not even funny.<br /><br />Light Bulb!!! i think I'll go right now and finish watching this last weeks biggest loser and go use my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">Wii</span> fit board as a stepper (I bought a contraption to go under it to raise it for turning it into a stepper) and do some step exercising while <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">I'm</span> watching it. Sounds like a plan and something I've never thought of before. Maybe when I'm done I'll feel motivated to do some working out on the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-error">Wii</span>. :)<br /><br />Make it a wonderful weekend :)<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><strong><em>Jules</em></strong></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-86340881611334027132011-02-12T21:40:00.002-07:002011-02-12T21:53:01.303-07:00A good dayToday wasn't too bad. I got some things done off my to-do list, not that you can tell :) But most importantly I kept my promises to myself today. :)<br /><br />1. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Journal</span> all my food- check<br />2. watched my food groups - check (must get more fruit in my day)<br />3. Exercised- CHECK<br />4. Blogged- check check<br /><br />Now to keep the ball rolling every day.<br /><br />I know today's victories were little, but they were important for me. Important to have that feeling back... that feeling of accomplishment for doing something for me. Tomorrow I need to not only do all those things, but also weigh and measure my food. For the most part I have been for the last year, but I have become lax and only do it... when I feel I have the time. And that's only 1 or 2 meals a day. Dinner wasn't good at all and that was my fault for not thinking ahead, but i did manage to portion control what we did have. YEAH!! The point is, I need my priorities straight.<br /><br />Like I said, I exercised tonight too. I had bought the Your Shape for the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">Wii</span> at the end of December and had my profile all ready to go... but in true lazy fashion have yet to use it. So I did tonight. I am sorely out of shape, but so glad I did it. Even if I only managed 15min, it was 15 minutes of victory over not doing it. So today for me was a WIN! Today was a WIN at taking my life back.<br /><br />Sweet dreams Peeps. May your Sunday be miraculous!<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><em>Jules</em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-39544007486053086532011-02-12T10:56:00.003-07:002011-02-12T11:44:56.198-07:00back to square one...I must admit I've been bottling a lot up lately and feeling really down on myself for it too. When I think back to when i first started this blog, well I realize I'm in the same place except for 1 detail... no drive, no ambition. So really I'm back to that place I was in BEFORE i started this blog. And that makes me so (wish i could say mad) sad. Hence why I've not been on since August hard to admit things even to myself these days. Of course I have a ton of excuses and some of them valid. BUT there is just no excuse for putting me last and keeping everything to myself when i KNOW doing so will just make me feel horrible about myself.<br /><br />All I can say is that I need to take that crucial step forward the one that takes you from being stagnant to finally doing something about your situation. Logically i know I know how, I just have to read through this blog to see that. But illogically I feel like I don't know where to start. I feel like someone drowning trying desperately to swim with no idea just HOW to do so.<br /><br /><br />I'm stuck and in a place of fear. So much so that I even found myself telling me that if I lost weight I'm going to have all this loose extra skin which will continue to make me look fat and if my hubby can't even see the point of a boob job no way in hell will he let me get excess skin removed so I'd be better off fat (not that we have the money that is besides the point). WTH!! I sat down and cried because for me... that was a new low. No matter what I've never consciously thought I'd be better off fat. A new low for sure.<br /><br />Deep down I know I need to pull up my big girl panties and just start working every day towards being healthier. And I have been trying with food when it comes to meals, but I've noticed way too much food gone by the end of the day and no way can I blame it on the kids. Sometimes I don't even "consciously" remember eating what's gone either. I've back slided so far that i don't even know where I fell off at.<br /><br />So this morning i decided I need to steal time away to blog again or journal in an old fashioned book... whatever I can get my fingers on that day. Just so that i can get my head wrapped around what i need to be doing and not doing what I've been doing. I need to food journal as well and I need to start exercising and since I keep using the kids as an excuse not too... I need to do things I can do with them that we'll all enjoy.<br /><br />I know all of this will help some of the issues I've been having like for example, exhaustion.<br /><br />So, there you go. That gives you a little idea of where I've been for a while now. I know there's more to tell you all... but to be honest this has already taken an hour to get out there. So for now tata. :)<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><em>Jules</em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-64627517069904617162010-08-06T11:00:00.002-07:002010-08-06T11:22:09.410-07:00life, such a beautiful thingGoodness me... has it really been since the middle of May since I got on here? I quickly pop in on blog reading every great while. But taking the time to sit down and post on here, well it's been the furthest thing from my mind.<br /><br />Life is just crazy around here, and although Logan has blissfully found his way into our life and our routine. I've had to cut some things out of my life. Like blogging and reading blogs; i miss it all the time though.<br /><br />I think about losing weight and getting healthy all the time. Especially when i look in the mirror or step on the scale. But I've had to really take a hard look into our finances to figure out how just to do that. I can't afford to go back to eating the way I was when i started blogging on here and before I got pregnant. We just can't afford it. makes me sad... but i just have to buck up and deal with it.<br /><br />I have been doing what i can to work out, some weeks I'm pretty regular and some weeks I'm not. My husband has gotten behind me finally and has started working out with me. I have a group of girlfriends on <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">facebook</span> who've started a monthly event of keeping up with each other to help motivate ourselves to working out each day... really we're just being accountable with each other. It helps knowing every day I have to log on there and admit if I have or have not exercised. we just started it so we'll see if it helps.<br /><br />i think the biggest change has <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">occurred</span> this last weekend. I've decided to go back to vegetarian eating (by proxy i was eating vegetarian years ago and lost lots of weight while walking everyday). I have to admit I'm not doing it to save the animals or any other reason that i probably should. Rather I'm simply doing it because I know it worked before. I've attempted it before but I was trying to cook these outlandish meals or meals that weren't really to my liking. Worse yet, difficult to prepare with uncommon <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">ingredients</span>. This time around... I'm just tweaking some of our favorite meals. Monday I made sloppy <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">joes</span>... instead of tofu meat or anything of the sorts, i made mine with mushrooms... <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">OMG</span>!! They were so yummy!!! Hubby got the normal kind, i think that was the most elaborate cooking I've done all week (having to make 2 different meals). otherwise, i just cook his meat on the side and add it to his plate or bowl before dishing up. Tonight is mushroom <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">stroganoff</span>. I can't wait!!! the mushrooms were always my favorite part anyways.<br /><br />This weekend or next week I'm borrowing P90X from a good friend. i can't wait to start that. I haven't been losing any weight doing Yoga with the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-error">hubster</span>. he's a little perplexed at the idea of P90X. But I'm pushing us to just what we can of the program until we can do the full time of the program. Gotta do something and I hear what he "says" he wants to do exercise wise... but he doesn't do what he/we need to do for exercise to make an effect in the way our bodies look. I've noticed certain clothes getting loser, but not enough. I'm trying not to let that fact get me down... but hopefully with all these little changes... I'll start to see results. If not... I'll be thankful for getting myself healthier. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-error">ok</span>, I admit... if my body <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">doesn't</span> start changing soon... I will be down. But I'm trying to think that way, even if I know in my heart I'll be upset if my <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_9" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">doesn't</span> change. power of positive thinking ya know. Anyhow...<br /><br />Hope everyone out there is great! I'll try to check in when i can. :)<br /><br />JulesJuleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-26699975799045891762010-05-17T10:33:00.003-07:002010-05-17T10:57:38.358-07:00Day 2- holy moley am I in trouble :)Wouldn't you know it... It's a good thing I got in my 24 minute Wii workout yesterday because last night Logan was in screaming pain from his bowels. I put my daughter to bed got 5 minutes into my workout and my husband just couldn't do it any more (couldn't blame him... he was 1+hr in already with Logan being upset). So i didn't get my PM workout in, by the time i got him calmed down and to bed... I was past ready for bed. I knew there was a reason i wanted to start doing 20 minute workouts in the Am and Pm. 1 it's easier to break the time up and 2 at least I'm getting something in every day when life happens. :) lol<br /><br />I also completed my food journal for yesterday too. Drank all my water for the day too. YEAH ME!! It's been a long time since I had 1 day where I met my goals. YEAH ME!!!<br /><br /><strong>What are my goals for the rest of May?</strong><br />1. at minimum 1 -20 minute workout every day, shooting for 2<br />2. at minimum 64oz water<br />3. journal every morsel I put in my mouth<br /><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"><strong>But why am I in trouble?</strong></div><br />This morning i FINALLY tried my Jillian Michael's Fitness Ultimatum 2009 Wii game. Holy MOLEY!! I set it for a 30 min LIGHT workout... holy shipola!! I got 20 minutes into it and just couldn't finish the rest (barely got through that). Holy crap am I cooked!! But... I'm excited to do it again. hahahahaa!! I'll be doing it every 3rd day because I'm rotating between my workout games.<br /><br />1. Pilate's w/ daisy + Wii Fit<br />2. Jillian<br />3. EA active<br /><br />In the evenings I'll be doing my Pilate's for the ball for 20 minutes. I'm in love with that DVD. I like that each segment is only 10minutes so i can do 2 different segments each night and focus on different body parts... although I admit 1 of those segments will always be the flexibility segment I've been doing since before my son was born. It helps me relax and I always feel good after. But let me tell ya... so far, outside of thet felxibility portion all i can handle doing (and barely) is the upper body workout.<br /><br />And all this really boils down to... HOLY MOLEY am i outa shape. But I'm feeling great!!! yesterday i even had more energy than I have in a long time.<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#cc33cc;"><strong><em>Jules</em></strong></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-30068226957316720792010-05-16T09:23:00.003-07:002010-05-16T09:57:48.367-07:00Time to get crackin'!!Life has been crazy around here. I quit making "ME" a priority again. It's amazing how quickly that happens and how easily I just make it "ok".<br /><br />And honestly, I didn't have it in me to deal with me when i was dealing so much with my son and his health. He's ok now that we're getting down to the root of his problems (turns out he has a milk protein allergy) and luckily, he's a TOTALLY different little guy these last few days. Makes things easier and we're both sleeping better now. :) Last week I did get the all clear from my Dr on my health and he said I am to commence working out full speed (he was glad to hear about my modified workouts) as I feel fit. YEAH!!<br /><br />But for almost 2 weeks there, I quit working out. My husband quit taking kid duty for me so i could work out in the evenings and I quit food journaling. no matter what... it's all Excuses excuses. And although I've given myself a mental "don't beat yourself up about it pep talk" I also recognize that it's time to make me a priority now that things are better. no one else can do that for me, but me. I know life happens just as it has been happening... but I'm going to actively work on making sure that even though sh*t happens... i can't let it take over my health or I won't have a life to deal with.<br /><br />SO!!<br />I'm happy to say the middle of last week I pulled my britches up and kicked myself in the as*. I started food journaling again and although I hadn't started exercising until today i talked with my husband about what i need from him to make things easier for me to not have those excuses to get in the way. Since today is the start of my week for weighing in he's agreed that we'll set the plan in motion. I need to be better about getting my day started and despite being tired not sit in my room with my son for 2 hours talking myself into getting going. i just need to get going. Which i DID. I got in a 24min workout this morning on the Wii and this evening I'll do a 20 minute exercise ball workout before he leaves for work. I've got my food journal for the week ready to go and I'm READY!! I'm ready to look at my todo list and know that before I go to bed, I need to cross off my workouts as a MUST do instead of telling myself I'll do it tomorrow.<br /><br />Despite my lack of effort i have managed to lose 1.3lbs the last 2 weeks. I really am not sure how, but I know that this won't keep happening so1 way or another I will make myself a priority and that's all there is to it.<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#cc33cc;"><em><strong>Jules</strong></em></span><br /><strong><em><span style="font-size:180%;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em></strong>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-46637324229576418742010-05-08T20:54:00.002-07:002010-05-08T20:56:35.284-07:00To all you moms out there<div>I know I need to update you all... but things have been nutty. I couldn't let tomorrow go by without saying...</div><div> </div>HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!<br /><br />Hope everyone has a beautiful day!<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><strong><em>Jules</em></strong></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-59093182634774253122010-04-28T04:09:00.002-07:002010-04-28T04:23:18.919-07:00Pushing through.Last week was not a failure week for me.<br /><br />At least I'm not looking at it as a failure.<br /><br />I worked out 4 out of 5 days.<br /><br />I didn't reach my daily water goals<br /><br />I didn't reach my food journaling goals<br /><br />I didn't... i didn't... I didn't.<br /><br />BUT I worked out 4 out of 5 days. I'm trying really hard. Just realizing that I need to keep trying, keep pushing through and at the same time realize that until my handsome guy is sleeping through the night (and therefore me too)... it's going to be a really tough journey. I have to admit.. i make the WORST choices when I'm tired, lets see... who else can see that being a HUGE problem in the motivation arena. especially when it comes to meal choices. I'm living on coffee and water, heck I need coffee in the afternoons as much as I do in the morning. I'm trying to limit it so as to get enough water... but it's not quite working yet. I'll keep trying.<br /><br />So, despite the exhaustion, I'm pushing on. I'm trying, I start out good in the morning, but some where in between juggling my day... I fall short. I'm working hard on limiting the "sweets" and I'm working hard at trying to find my balance. Right now, I feel like if I can just exercise my easy peasy routine (since I'm not cleared for exercise yet) for 4-5 days a week... then I'm a winner.<br /><br />I know I need to battle through on my other goals as much as exercising too and I'll keep trying until I get there. But I know my limitations too... no matter how well I plan, exhaustion dictates most my day and with a 1 month old in the house... it's just the way the day rolls and I've got to learn to deal right? despite the excuses.<br /><br />This week I'm working on exercising the full 5 days, 2 down... 3 to go. YEAH!! I'm also working on trying to get back to using the mydiet app on facebook. so, far... yeah right. Really wish I had a phone with a calorie counting app on it to make it all more accessible, getting on this darn computer is harder than ever these days. Some day, I'll have one or maybe a bodybug if I wish hard enough. :)<br /><br />No matter your situation... Make it your best week possible.<br /><br />Always,<br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;color:#cc33cc;"><em><strong>Jules</strong></em></span>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4288786990668190406.post-51895436981856313752010-04-18T09:02:00.002-07:002010-04-18T09:08:06.518-07:00I'm just sayin'!!!WHOHOOO!!<br /><br />Ok, so I've tried not to focus on the #'s right now... but WHOHOO!!<br /><br />As of today, I've only got 10lbs more lbs of baby weight to lose!! WHOHOOOO!!!<br /><br />Doesn't feel so daunting and scary to imagine the # I'll have to start with May 1st. :)<br /><br />Wonder if I'll lose the whole 34lbs or not? But either way, WHOHOO!!!!!<br /><br />Gotta love how losing baby weight without trying (OK swelling, but still) can make a girl feel good and boy can spark motivation!!<br /><br />Told my hubby that I almost wanna have a 3rd after I get to my "healthy journey" goal weight to see if I'm one of those women we all despise... you know the kind who start skinny and pop a kid out and weeks later are skinny again. Lets just say, he wasn't amused. hahahahaha!!!.<br /><br />Have a great Sunday all!! Make it a great day!!<br /><br />Always,<br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#cc33cc;">Jules</span></em></strong>Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15077354588121243899noreply@blogger.com4