Wednesday, August 10, 2011


Right now I'm sick. It's taking everything I have to take care of my kids minute to minute.

The thing that I keep pondering as i TRY TRY TRY to convince myself to count calories and cook meals that are more in line with my healthiness journey and avoid gaining weight this week is this? (mind you I've yet to convince myself of either)

do you handle being sick and being "healthy" (aka dieting) at the same time?

Let me just admit right now. I'm failing!!! I've got to turn it around, but right now I can't seem to get past the fact that I feel like the worlds biggest pile of cow dung.

So how do you handle being sick and living a healthy lifestyle. Please share!!!


Thursday, August 4, 2011

Checking in

Yep, I'm still around. I have not been out of touch due to falling off the wagon. I've been out of touch because:

I'm trying to live my life more.
(that's something I've realized I had quit doing due to my weight)

I'm working hard to fit exercise into my life without excuses.
(that's something I haven't done in almost 10 years)

I'm trying daily to keep my "diet" something reasonable and REAL. To make it a lifestyle not a "diet" that I'll stop doing shortly after starving myself.
(Which lets face it. can SUCK! But I've learned to accept that pasta and cheese dishes can not be the norm.)

Needless to say add a husband, 2 kids, a cat, trying to buy our first home hoopla, a part time job and life in general. Keeping those 3 things above in the forefront of my mind is a chore all in itself. BUT I'm trying every day.

And so far so good. I'm down 10lbs since I started using (early July was a little tougher than I realized, but the scale did realize it and showed it). I'm pretty consistent on exercise. I'm fitting it in 4-6 days a week. The whole family heads to the park and I go walking while the oldest rides her bike and the littlest one hangs out screaming doggie in the stroller. It's adorable, take my word for it. :)

I think the biggest change since I last checked in is the hubster. He seems more on board with what I need from him as the hubby of an overweight food addict. He's starting to listen to me!! WHAT!! step back... how'd that happen. hehehee!! Sorry no magical pills being slipped to him. I think he's just finally really listening when we talk about things. Like how carb related sweets are my form of crack. Can't have it in the house without an addict using. He's finally getting it. Taken him long enough. :) lol I think it's also helping that he's trying to train for a job that he really wants to get. He's going to be expected to run 1.5mi in 16min. No biggie... but he hasn't ran since HS. Lets not even admit how long ago THAT was. :) lol So while I walk, he runs. It's working so far. I can't wait for it to be cooler out there. over 100 @ 7pm is starting to get to us all.

I just realized that isn't the biggest change since my last post. I'm working hard on changing my own personal view on ME! You know that negative little nelly in your head that looks at someone else who's obviously bigger than you, but tells you that your as big as them or even bigger. Or that negative nelly who tells you you can't do this losing weight thing; that you'll fail. Well, she's turning into a positive patty. I'm starting to be real about me! Telling myself that yes, I'm fat... get over it already! that it's NOT going to stay that way. And many more things I remind myself. But you get my drift.

I'd say that HAS to be the biggest change. And that has GOT to be the biggest thing that is making this work this time around too.

Anyhow... It's bed time for me. i just wanted to touch base with you all! No matter what! Keep up the hard work! If I can do this... believe me, YOU can do this also! Keep your head up and strive to move forward!


PS. If you are using myfitnesspal feel free to friend me. jules77az

Friday, June 17, 2011

8lbs never to be seen again

It's the same ol' story as always.




there's just so little of it. And blogging just has not been a priority. I truly wish it could be. I miss it. I don't know how some moms do it.

But I did want to share with you that I haven't been "MIA" because I again fell off the healthiness wagon.

Since joining I've lost 8lbs. YEAH!!!
(if your on there, look for me: jules77az)

I've had some slip ups and some bad eating days. Exercise is SOOO not consistent and some times few and far between. But I did bite the bullet and dropped my calories to the sites recommendation and although some days I feel like I'm starving and other days I'm SO tired of eating the same thing over and over again. I've been sticking to the plan I've set for myself eating wise. I'm eating as healthy as my families budget can afford and I'm not starving myself (ok some days I feel like I am, but i know it's all mental). On the hard days I try not to give in and other days (ie eating the last of the ice cream for lunch right out of the carton) I'm learning not to beat myself up over it. I'm learning not to "make up" for yesterday. I'm learning I'm human and days will be days. I'm learning. I feel like I'm getting the hang of it and I'm even feeling ready to venture out of the comfort zone I've established food selection wise (I've been eating mostly all the same things every breakfast and lunch). Baby steps right?

I know I need to fit in exercise more. And I'm trying. I just hate it so much!!! I know it's a necessary evil but damn it!! I'm just too tired when the kids aren't around and busy when they are. I'll get there I know I will. But I'll get more comfy eating wise and keep doing what I'm trying to do. And in a few weeks... I'll have to set up a routine and do just what I've done eating wise... stick to it.

For now, I just wanted to say.

No matter where you are in your journey.


Keep plugging away and keep fighting for yourself. Sooner or later you will find what works for you. Getting healthy and how to get there is not a cookie cutter recipe. It's a different map for everyone and different things work for everyone.

I for one am not giving up.

And the 8lbs I've lost... I vow to never see again. And for once, I believe myself. :)


Saturday, May 7, 2011

ugly ugly day.

Yesterday was an ugly ugly day for me. I just couldn't find motivation for ANYTHING!! On a day like yesterday, making mac and cheese for my oldest was a BAD BAD idea.

Breakfast I was good and dinner I was good. lunch and snacks... bad bad bad. Although. I must say 1 thing I'm proud of. It wasn't as bad as it used to be. My calories are suppose to be 1410/day and I ended yesterday at 1649. Before I would have ended at 2400 calories. So that was a victory all in its own. Finding 1 good thing out a bad day is a good thing. Shows I'm learning!! :)

Exercise was non existent yesterday so I'm counting yesterday as 1 of my days off. And that's ok too.

Today I am going to rock it and achieve all my goals. I just know it!!!

Have a wonderful day today!