Wednesday, August 10, 2011

uuggghhh...

Right now I'm sick. It's taking everything I have to take care of my kids minute to minute.

The thing that I keep pondering as i TRY TRY TRY to convince myself to count calories and cook meals that are more in line with my healthiness journey and avoid gaining weight this week is this? (mind you I've yet to convince myself of either)

HOW IN THE HECK...
do you handle being sick and being "healthy" (aka dieting) at the same time?


Let me just admit right now. I'm failing!!! I've got to turn it around, but right now I can't seem to get past the fact that I feel like the worlds biggest pile of cow dung.

So how do you handle being sick and living a healthy lifestyle. Please share!!!

Jules

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Checking in

Yep, I'm still around. I have not been out of touch due to falling off the wagon. I've been out of touch because:

I'm trying to live my life more.
(that's something I've realized I had quit doing due to my weight)

I'm working hard to fit exercise into my life without excuses.
(that's something I haven't done in almost 10 years)

I'm trying daily to keep my "diet" something reasonable and REAL. To make it a lifestyle not a "diet" that I'll stop doing shortly after starving myself.
(Which lets face it. can SUCK! But I've learned to accept that pasta and cheese dishes can not be the norm.)

Needless to say add a husband, 2 kids, a cat, trying to buy our first home hoopla, a part time job and life in general. Keeping those 3 things above in the forefront of my mind is a chore all in itself. BUT I'm trying every day.

And so far so good. I'm down 10lbs since I started using myfitnesspal.com (early July was a little tougher than I realized, but the scale did realize it and showed it). I'm pretty consistent on exercise. I'm fitting it in 4-6 days a week. The whole family heads to the park and I go walking while the oldest rides her bike and the littlest one hangs out screaming doggie in the stroller. It's adorable, take my word for it. :)

I think the biggest change since I last checked in is the hubster. He seems more on board with what I need from him as the hubby of an overweight food addict. He's starting to listen to me!! WHAT!! step back... how'd that happen. hehehee!! Sorry no magical pills being slipped to him. I think he's just finally really listening when we talk about things. Like how carb related sweets are my form of crack. Can't have it in the house without an addict using. He's finally getting it. Taken him long enough. :) lol I think it's also helping that he's trying to train for a job that he really wants to get. He's going to be expected to run 1.5mi in 16min. No biggie... but he hasn't ran since HS. Lets not even admit how long ago THAT was. :) lol So while I walk, he runs. It's working so far. I can't wait for it to be cooler out there. over 100 @ 7pm is starting to get to us all.

I just realized that isn't the biggest change since my last post. I'm working hard on changing my own personal view on ME! You know that negative little nelly in your head that looks at someone else who's obviously bigger than you, but tells you that your as big as them or even bigger. Or that negative nelly who tells you you can't do this losing weight thing; that you'll fail. Well, she's turning into a positive patty. I'm starting to be real about me! Telling myself that yes, I'm fat... get over it already! that it's NOT going to stay that way. And many more things I remind myself. But you get my drift.

I'd say that HAS to be the biggest change. And that has GOT to be the biggest thing that is making this work this time around too.

Anyhow... It's bed time for me. i just wanted to touch base with you all! No matter what! Keep up the hard work! If I can do this... believe me, YOU can do this also! Keep your head up and strive to move forward!

Always,
Jules

PS. If you are using myfitnesspal feel free to friend me. jules77az