I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD...

If I could get onto my roof I would get up there and scream while crying right now! I feel so fantastic it's bringing me to tears. Yeah it's that good and although I'm a cryer... I'm not usually a cryer when I'm happy. :) So you might be asking yourself... why is she so ecstatic?

1. We don't own our house, we are renters. Thank god we have a great landlord who is not someone who will foreclose on us in these trying times. Anyhow... he lives a mile away from our house in our neighborhood. Really, he's right on the other side of the park I've been walking in. yesterday was the 1st, rent's due. And although I had a TON of stuff to do last night when I got done with a few of the MUST do things on my list... i grabbed missy, put her in the stroller and went for a walk. Yep. yesterday i did 2 miles total for the day. AND I even tried running with the stroller. It's not for me right now, but i can do it when need be. :)

Now when i woke up this morning... OMG! For the 1st time since starting this journey. My legs ached. I mean actual stiff, can't walk kind of aching. The I over did it kind of aching. Which led me to #2.

2. I knew I needed to walking despite the aching in my legs. So instead of playing around on the Internet this am I uploaded new songs to my MP3 player as the songs that were on it were getting too repetitive for my liking. So I finished that, did my stretches and headed out there door. All the while all i could think of was how much i ache and how much i just was able to push it. I tried to keep a good pace, but it was difficult. Before I even reached the stretch of pathway that leads to my running spots I had already taken more time than usual to get there. I pushed thru though and was thankful when a REALLY upbeat song came on. As approached my gate that is my starting point I just kept telling myself, "just go slow, work on your breathing techniques". So when i got to my gate, I slowly started out. I worked on remembering what coach taught me all those years ago and just breathed. Ignored my legs and the tempo of the jog, just breathed. And what do you know, i settled in for a good time. :) When i got to the spot between the 2 light poles where I've been stopping for the last week... I felt good... mind you I was still ignoring my legs. I wasn't winded and I was feeling it, so i pushed on. And I made it to the 2nd light pole, still not out of breath! I actually did a little jig while turning around to head back. When i got to the 1st light pole to start my jog back... I did the same thing as the 1st leg of the run! And I did it!!! I actually started crying and was pumping my arms like I was crazy person doing a jig, because lets face it! I was!!! I can not tell you how amazing it felt. Despite the aching in my legs, despite starting out feeling like I can't do it today! I PUSHED THRU!!! I DID IT!! I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD!!!!

I finished my walk strong and in tears, for the first time (not really, but figuratively) I saw the hills in my little park and realized some day, sooner than i could ever imagine, I will be able to change up my routine and run those hills. I'll veer from the concrete path and run in the grass and run those hills.

Someday, i will be this amazing person who I can be proud of instead of the fat girl i was always dissappointed in. OH WAIT!!!! I already am that person I'm proud of, and look I'm still the fat girl (for the time being)!!!!

Mind you when i got home and told Hubby about this... he was very confused because he's never seen the handy dandy pictures I posted on here and he's never been on my walk. he did say he was proud of me, but alas he still looked at me like I was crazy for crying. he just doesn't get it as he's never been where I am before. oh well. let him be confused.

OH and i decided that I will push hubby & missy to go out on walks with me in the evenings at least 3 times a week. Which means, turning off the TV and leaving the house as a family. WOW!! What a concept... ooowww... that will help me with my TV addiction! Ok... So I wrote here, I've committed myself to that challenge... Tune in to see if we do it! If he won't, missy and i will :)

Always,

Jules

P.S. I forgot to mention that I also finsihed my walk/run with the best overall time to date! I will not let the new time daunt me for future walks either! I can do it!!